Sunday, January 8, 2012

Does anyone know a good way to deal with grief?

My boyfriend and I have been together for about a year now and we are still in school. We know that we are perfect for each other; he is the one for me. I'm sure if you've felt that, you'll understand what I mean and feel. At school we were inseparable, until now. The school has regarded him as a trouble maker, ever since first grade (it is a private school). He is not what you would consider bad though, actually, he was the only one in that hell hole who actually has their values (never cusses, very charitable, insanely smart with better common sense than most, loves me with all of his heart and shows it, etc.). But he did sometimes have a hard time with self-control in the past, even though he'd gotten better now. One of the students recently made up that he said something very racist, which he didn't. There was a big conference and he was told that if he did anything else he would be expelled. Last Friday, he was reading to little kids and he was sneezing, to keep them entertained, he pretended to wipe it on one of them, he did NOT actually wipe it on the little boy. The kid went home and I guess thought it was hilarious and told his parents. His parents were upset by it and sent in a note to school and my other half was told he could either leave the school (and not have expulsion on his permanent record) or be expelled. He left which means he still has a chance to go to my high school. This is the hardest thing I've ever had to deal with. We were always with each other, he is my best friend, and now he is gone from me at school, the only person I get or gets me is gone. He is the only person I ever want to be with ever. I don't care if everyone I know moves or dies or leaves aslong as I have him with me. I've been a wreck since I found out. I cry whenever I see something that reminds me of him, is it strange? I mean responding to this like he died or something. I'm so depressed right now, I need him, I can't deal with all of these shallow people alone, or this corrupt school, or teachers looking at me like I deserve this. I really need a hug right now but we can't even see each other until saturday. I love him so much can anyone help me? He is trying but its hard when are both so scared and depressed.

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